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My Latest GST (Grand Sweeping Theory)

I am not much for grand theories of everything.  Marx had one, Hegel had one, Freud had one, and sooner or later all of them more or less went by the boards.  I am not quite up to the standards of those three, and so any grand sweeping theory I have is more or less doomed from the outset.  Nevertheless, here on the Virtual Teahouse, I am going to offer yet another Grand Sweeping Theory. 

 Because I work in what is called a "liturgical" church, we observe various seasons; the one we are now in is Lent, a penitential time far more honored in the breach than in the observance.  The first Sunday of this season is always devoted to a consideration of the temptations of Jesus.  As I was considering this story for the twenty-seventh time in my preaching career something occurred to me that quickly became my new GST.  There are not many temptations, there is only one temptation that comes to us in many forms.  That is the temptation to reject our basic humanity and to try to become more than we really are, more than fully human.  The Hebrew bible nails this one right on the head, by the way, for in the very first story that involves humans as active participants the serpent overcomes Eve's reluctance to eat the fruit by saying "Oh no, you will not die if you eat it, you will become like God, knowing good and evil."  Quite remarkable.  Eve's "disobedience," if that is what it is, is born of a desire to become more than human. 

 I think that is how it is for all of us.  It is hard to be a human being; we live with a variety of limitations which include having to suffer, getting old, not knowing, feeling helpless in the face of pain in those we love, lonlieness and so forth. To embrace the true fullness of what it means to be human is to embrace all that, to accept it and to say this part of what it means to be me.  Every one of us is tempted much of the time in one way or another to seek a way around all these limitations.  Advertising is based upon this whole idea.  Get a certain cell phone plan and quess what?  You will have "No Limits."  Buy a certain car and you will either be just like Tiger Woods or incredibly attractive to whomever you really want to be attractive to.  Think about that ridiculous hair care ad for aging male boomers that began: "we were the generation that said we wouldn't get old, and we didn't!"  No, we just bought this hair dye and once again were as hip and with it as we were when we had acne and couldn't talk to girls without blushing.  This stuff is all preposterous, but it works on the same principle; most of us at one level or another don't really want embrace the true fullness of our humanity, and so we actually fall for stuff that tells us we don't have to that, that tempts us to reject our humanity and become more than fully human. 

 Some times the temptation speaks to our pride, as when Bernie Madoff rips off people who trusted him to the tune of fifty billion dollars because, well, the rules don't really apply to him; he is special and different.  Sometimes the temptation speaks to our shame, as when we live with this more or less chronic sense of inadequacy, barely enduring ourselves because we just didn't do well enough. That sense of inadequacy can spiral into the temptation to real despair because of that gnawing sense that being me isn't good enough and there is nothing I can do about it. 

 Saying "Yes" to temptation in whatever form it takes is thus not about being weak or bad.  It is about believing at some really deep level, a level perhaps that does not even rise to consciousness, that whatever I am is not quite enough, and therefore I need to escape what I am and become something more.  I contrast this, by the way with a healthy dissatisfaction that all of us need from time to time with what we have done.  If I really screw something up, say this blog, then I need to notice that and tell myself I can do better than that.  That is a good thing.  That is about pushing myself to fulfill my human potential, not about dissatisfaction with being human.  The root temptation all of us face is not about becoming better at what we truly are, it is about wanting to escape what we truly are, become other or more than true, complete, full humans beings.

The bad news in all this is that nothing is so limiting as rejecting our limitations.  People who don't love what they truly are as human beings have a hard time loving others.  People who have no compassion for themselves have a hard time truly extending compassion to others.  People who who don't tolerate mistakes in themselves notice mistakes in others, often to the exclusion of everyting else.  Beyond that, I can't even count the number of times I haven't tried things because I was fearful either about the outcome or about how good I could be at whatever it was.  The temptation to reject what we are for the sake of trying to become something more is, in my new GST, the single thing that prevents us most comprehensively from fulfilling our true potential as people.  On the whole, those who have most embraced their own humanity are the ones who have come closest to fulfilling their highest and best selves. 

Which brings me to Jesus.  We know what the church says about him theologically. But I don't think he resisted, and even rejected temptation because he knew he was somehow participating in the divine life in a unique way.  Who knows whether he had even the slightest idea about any of that.  I think he resisted and even rejected temptation because he accepted his full humanity with all that humanity implied.  By saying "Yes" to his own humanity he could say "No" to every temptation to reject that humanity. 

The good news is that we can do that too.  We don't have to live as people who don't really like being people.  We can embrace what we are, fully and completely.  We can say "Yes" to our own humanity, and thus become free to say "No" to the temptation to try and be something different.  To do that is the first and most important step in overcoming our own demons.  So now I believe, in accordance with my GST, that Lent is not a time to focus on how bad I am.  (Actually I never believed that, but my rhetorical style is dialectic, so I threw that line in.)  I believe that Lent is time to focus on the fullness of what it means to be a human being, and to accept that, to embrace it, to live into it as completely as ever I can right here and now.  In that way I, and all of us, can do what Jesus did, say "Yes" to our humanity so that we can say "No" to every temptation to reject that humanity.  For that is the road to real spiritual health, the path we are all called to walk. 

Published Monday, March 02, 2009 7:24 PM by Bill Ellis

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Beth Patterson said:

Hi Bill--

As usual, you've hit the Head on the nail...

That desire to be more than human is the crux of our matter, and the source of probably most of our discontent...at least on one level.  It feels though, that the next layer down from wanting to be more than what we are is the absolute distress at feeling separate from the One.  So our need to be more than what we are may stem from the existential anxiety of feeling alone in the universe.  

In my walk, a shift for me came when I realized that my teacher, Jesus, knew his place in the world with such huge understanding, that if I really took his lead and put my sights on becoming rooted and grounded in my being there would be growth and unfoldment that was not available when I was resisting just being who I have been created as/co-created with.  

Portrait of a Radical with Huston Smith, Richard Rohr and other amazing theologians, and part of the series, Crisis of Faith, is a great discussion video about the humanity of Jesus.  Here's a youtube about the series:  

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eckllq7kMvc

The video is available at most religious booksellers and on Amazon.

Thanks, Bill--I so enjoy your contemplations here on the VTH--they are so helpful and rich.

Have a great lenten season--and thanks for the re-frame!

March 3, 2009 10:39 AM
 

Bill Ellis said:

I really like the way you have nuanced this.  Distress at the feeling of being separate from the One.  That is why that temptation to want to be more, or other works, because we feel separate.  More and more I agree with Michelle M. that we really are not separate, that we are somehow living in an illusion, but the feeling itself is real, and so we are shaped by it.  

March 3, 2009 1:33 PM
 

Liz C. said:

Back in the 70's I read a book by a Jesuit (can't remember who) entitled "Fully Human, Fully Alive" and in that he quoted Augustine or T. Aquinas (can't remember which) who said something like "The glory of God is [man] fully alive". ( the brackets are mine for political correctness) That was inspiring at the time and I think I chose a profession that would help people over come barriers to being fully human and fully alive (heavens knows that I have a lot of barriers of my own caused by that emptiness and inferiority complex we all have) I would agree that dis-stress, dis-ease, dis-comfort come from wanting more- not being enough.  

Since then, I have been in search of someone who seems OK in their own skin,  AND who isn't rattled by the lack of humaness in others (those expressing their sense of separateness).  I wonder if anyone can give examples of what this might look like. And I don't mean Jesus.  What about today?  

   I am going to partially answer this question.  One example comes from the media.  I was referred to a series that was on TV for about 3 years starting in '94 called "Due South"  It was an action comedy about a Canadian Mountie who comes to Chicago when all he has experienced is small town life in northern Canada. He comes with no preconceived notions of life in the big city.  And we laugh at his naivete, yet that naivete treats everyone the same- no judgments.  The first 3 or 4 episodes highlighted that.  It changed lives.  And so life would change if we were all fully human and fully alive (aware, then, of our connectedness) and we could refrain from those judgments of others or ourselves that cripple us from being just who we are at this moment.

March 4, 2009 4:41 AM
 

Beth Patterson said:

Hi Liz!

Enjoying your thoughts on the way living from that place might look for any of us--which was the true message of the Christ, nu?  I liked your example, although I'm not familiar with the series.  

I think we all have moments of living in this place, and there are many examples.  What is rare is being able to really live in this space.

For me, when I touch into it,  it's very  hard to describe but there's a kind of 'whiteness' in my mind, a kind of blank slate or something like that.  It feels like each movement or word is not preconceived or with an outcome in mind.  That leaves each interaction--with human, vegetable or mineral--to be something new.  

Here's a link to a post made last year about 'my best day ever' which had nothing different or special about it other than my lack of judgment about how it was supposed to be.  It was a remarkable day, but I wish it weren't.  I don't really know how to make it un-remarkable.  More time for quietness,  more awareness applied when I slip into the usual 'trance'.  But some of it for me is a serendipity of experience, a grace.

http://virtualteahouse.com/blogs/beth/archive/2008/09/01/my-best-day-so-far.aspx

Any one else want to answer Liz's question?

Thanks for uploading your avatar picture--it's so nice to see your face!

March 4, 2009 6:17 AM
 

Liz C. said:

Beth, Thank you for sharing your post and experience.  That happens to me occasionally. I don't know "what comes over me". It almost feels like a detachment of a sorts. Detached from the torrent of negative emotions that swirl around, yet being utterly connected to the moment. Almost "bigger" than myself encompassing all, but not "weighted" by it.  A letting go of the need to make up a "story" in my head, usually dire, about whatever circumstance I am in.  I love it when that happens- a moment, a day, or hour of just being.

March 4, 2009 6:41 AM
 

Bill Ellis said:

Hey Liz, good to talk with you in this venue as well.  Your question about examples of people who really live their full humanity is good.  I think it is all of us at least once in a while, and a few of us much of the time.  I look for people who are truly willing to accept the full implications of their beliefs, go where the truth takes them, and who are willing to accept the consequences of their actions without blinking.  Those sorts of people will apologize for what they have done, the mistakes they have made, but they never apologize for themselves, never pretend that they are less than others, or more than others for that matter.  Look around, you will find them, maybe even in the mirror.  

March 4, 2009 11:59 AM
 

Liz C. said:

Hi Bill,  Thanks for giving me things to think about!

I want to taking my thoughts back to the question of what it would look like to others to be fully human. I gave that example of the lead character in "Due South".  He remembered people's names, he greeted everyone with the same warmth, he chose to live within walking distance to work even if it was in the middle of the ghetto- showed no fear- made decisions based on practicality rather than on what others may think.  etc, etc- We are fully human, I think, when we are actors in our drama- not reactors...perhaps another way of saying what you said, but often I find that non-imaginative people need to know what all the words actually translate into in the activities of daily living....

March 4, 2009 3:37 PM

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About Bill Ellis

I am an Episcopal priest. Since September of 2006 I have been the Dean of the Cathedral of St. John the Evangelist in Spokane, Washington. I am however a lifelong Oregonian, and consider Oregon to be my childhood religion. Bend was my home for fourteen years before coming to Spokane, but I have lived in Forest Grove, Eugene, (my spiritual Mecca) Coos Bay and Newport, as well as Ashland. I have been married since 1978 and we have two girls, both grown and gone to the wide world.
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